One thing that has always amazed me in the deepest depths of my mind is exactly what I am and what I was before I am what I am. I know that sounds silly, so if you don't get it, read it again.
Think WAAAY back when you were a little kid, 4-5 years old. Theres some memories there, I remember getting my first big scab on my knee because I fell on the playground in kindergarden. I also remember being batman for my 4th birthday.
Now think even earlier than that, getting harder? I can just barely remember being in my mothers arms when she'd go to the mall, i must have been around 3 years old.
Now think even before that, can't remember anything can you? Or if you can, its so extremely faint that there are hardly any thoughts to think.
NOW, think before when you were a baby. Think before birth. Think before you were in your mothers womb. Think before you were even a simple cell organism, before you were even anything whatsoever....Strange isn't it? Now I ask you to wonder, what was your existence before that?. And by that I don't mean reincarnation and all that jazz, reincarnation deals with having a different body/ or "shell." I mean think about how things went on before you were anything. YOUR personality, YOUR mind set, and your "soul" if you can call it that. You can think on and on on the subject and things just keep getting more and more complicated. Whats your purpose and when did your soul begin?
Surely you must have been influenced by the writings of swami Vivekananda. This is an age old thinking that is haunting human mind. Even modern science have failed to explain this phenomenon of the life and birth cycle. Probably the only possible answer is in the old Hindu Religious book of Bhagabat Gita.........................................................